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Kenjin Rank: Casual
Joined: 12 Jul 2008 Posts: 37
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Posted: Tue Mar 10, 2009 1:25 am Post subject: Rumblings of the mind |
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Hi ho folks. Letting everyone know I'm still alive. Some of you may be mildly interested, others may be overwhelmed with relief, others are at this moment stamping their feet in frustration with a slew of not so nice things to say near children. (I love myself don't I?) I haven't imploded, exploded, fallen off the face of the world, or otherwise not-existed.
I actually have a reason for my silence, and it runs deeper than just being a typically shy little fox that gets skittish in social settings even on the internetz.
Primarily, I'm one of those folk who feels the need to remain silent unless I have something to contribute relevant to my interest of being a useful creature. Sadly, I find myself in silence more often than not.
To be quite honest, there are a lot of cultured and sharp folks here. They comprise of people who've been here the longest, and have avatars longer than anyone. Being a minor Anime Otaku (Yes I got into the furry genre through that route), and sci-fi being more my style...
Bah screw it... I'll just admit I feel a tiny bit intimidated into silence. Ah yes, my insecurities on full display. Blah...
I've still been watching the progress of Vanessa's wonderful story, keeping my membership intact since April last year. Which would qualify me for an avatar, if it weren't for that nagging feeling that perhaps I'm undeserving of such an artistic honor considering that I've been playing the part of the stalking shadow nobody knows exactly why he's here.
That, and if I were to make a mark in BonBon, I've still yet to make a decision on what kind of character I would prefer to be represented in this delightful tale.
Let's face it, this community of loyal fans to lady Vanessa is like a family, and I am more akin to the strange third cousin that keeps mumbling to himself in a dark corner. In other words, I feel out of place.
Some may consider this an emo rant or some such thing. It's not really, as I despise that term, and to boot; I'm just a really eccentric individual with a cynical world view and possess a twisted sense of humor.
Translation: This is my weird way of getting something off my chest. I just wanted to explain myself, and perhaps even receive some advice or encouragement. Because I do know one thing about all of you... You're all good people united by a common desire. To appreciate fully Ms. Santato's sexy furry story.
Summary:
I still read the story of Pleasure bonbon each week.
I keep silent because I'm a shy dude that feels inadequate.
I would love to join the ranks of loyal fans with avatars, but due to aforementioned silence I feel I don't deserve one.
Tell me what you think of my self-perceived situation. |
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JohnnyPsycho Royal Member of BonBon
Joined: 08 Jul 2006 Posts: 2311
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Posted: Tue Mar 10, 2009 1:59 am Post subject: |
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Don't worry about it, I completely understand. In the real world, I am the shy, silent guy observing other people's conversations from a distance with interest, but not enough nerve to try and include myself. I suppose a setting such as this and other internet forums allows me to come out of my shell and be the type of person I've always wanted to be... basically, just like my crazy, witty, charming persona "JohnnyPsycho", or the related fur-sona "Johnny Six-Killer". I've gotten better, over the years, and have become much more sociable in most situations, but I still have my shy, "hermit-like" tendencies.
I understand completely where you're coming from, so I just have this bit of advice: stick with it, and try to find more ways of making your voice known, even if it involves starting your own threads explaining why you don't post much in here.
Hang in there, and when you feel comfortable with coming up with your own fursona, I'll be more than happy to buy you the first drink at Delight Castle's bar... _________________ Johnny's Fanfics (including Sureshot! A Bon Bon Tale)
Johnny's backstory
Johnny, Mark II (Project Aten character) |
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Drofgod969 Royal Member of BonBon
Joined: 08 Sep 2008 Posts: 3428
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Posted: Tue Mar 10, 2009 4:16 am Post subject: |
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I will be there too. I am also that way. even though i am talkitive here dosn't mean i am like this in the real world. here is a tip. Don't let yourself get intimadated.(starting to rant again sorry...) I know that you should take your time to come out of your shell like a turtle, but just don't feel intimadated... i think i need to go to sleep, now before i really get going. Oh and sorry if you don't feel that way but that was how i felt when i was in the background, before i met some of my friends i got now. here and in real life. _________________ yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. that's why it is called the present.
quoted by master Oogway off kong fu panda
Some weep, some cry, some make couches fly. - Katmir
Let me stand behind you in times of peace, let me stand infront of you in times of war, let me stand beside you as a equall, as a friend. |
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Kenjin Rank: Casual
Joined: 12 Jul 2008 Posts: 37
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Posted: Tue Mar 10, 2009 11:17 am Post subject: |
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Quote: | In the real world, I am the shy, silent guy observing other people's conversations from a distance with interest, but not enough nerve to try and include myself. I suppose a setting such as this and other internet forums allows me to come out of my shell and be the type of person I've always wanted to be... |
Yeah, the net does have that kind of un-inhibiting effect. My thought is that's because you're not looking the person you address so there's no sense of "Revealing" yourself to a real person. After all it's just type right?
Well, odd thing, it feels the opposite here. I'm not dealing with a bunch of anonymous voices here, not a bunch of forum scanning trolls, I'm in the presence of some down-right decent people. I guess I'm too concerned with image here. Eh ah well.
In reality, once I get comfortable with a group. I become "Who the hell is that crazy guy bouncing around and flailing his arms?" I do tend to get a little crazy and raunchy (And oddly, it's not alcohol induced), usually keeping everyone's spirits up in one form or another. Until then, I'm much the same johnny.
Thanks Johnny, and you too Drofgod.
And despite the abundance of canines within the royal members, I'm leaning towards the idea that you'd be buying a drink for a red fox handyman with a habit of being a pool-shark.
Betting on billiards being an effective method of separating a fool and his florins, and then spending it on a sweet thing in the delight castle. |
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Symphony Royal Member of BonBon
Joined: 13 Apr 2008 Posts: 2620
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Posted: Tue Mar 10, 2009 11:31 am Post subject: |
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I always seem to have trouble fitting in online, so I understand what you're feeling. I feel quite comfortable here now, though there can still be times where I feel out of place or just don't have anything to add. But what helped me in the beginning was to simply come up with a lot of threads. It was easier for me to create a topic about what I'd like to talk about, and then just reply to the others when they posted in my threads, than simply jumping into ongoning threads. That might work for you too, so I'd simply suggest coming up with ideas for a couple of threads. Like if you want to talk about your fursona, the comic, characters, furry artwork in general, or something like that. _________________ Constance Mayflower's bio
Constance Mayflower's diary
The Mayflower Diaries |
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Tadelesh Royal Member of BonBon
Joined: 31 Jul 2008 Posts: 1578
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Posted: Tue Mar 10, 2009 12:38 pm Post subject: |
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I, too, am the shy, quiet guy in real life. I even am a lot here, too, lurking more often than posting. If I don't feel like what I have to say is important enough, I don't say anything. I try to be more assertive, but even when I put on the fursuit of Tadelesh, I still sometimes transfer my insecurities to him.
I don't think anyone has anything against you, and I'm sure nobody will yell at you for posting or anything. If there's something you want to talk about, start a thread about it; or if there's already a thread about it, jump right in. Sure, some threads may go a bit off-topic, but if you want to talk about the topic, you could be the one to bring it back on-topic. That's a good thing to do. _________________ Wow, sarcasm! That's original. |
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Mystic Royal Member of BonBon
Joined: 23 Sep 2007 Posts: 1462
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Posted: Tue Mar 10, 2009 1:41 pm Post subject: |
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Just remember, the only true requirement that you need to be on the forum is for an avatar.
There's no rule stating you can't simply sneak about, watching the progress of the comic and simply enjoying the site. Its only if your looking for the interaction of fellow members that you should stick around in the forum or to vote on the various projects Vanessa posts up. _________________ Oh, I'd tell myself
What good do you do
Convince myself |
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LabrnMystic Royal Member of BonBon
Joined: 27 Jul 2005 Posts: 2568
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Posted: Sat Mar 14, 2009 2:07 am Post subject: |
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What are you guys, mini-boos? I suppose I'm the only one here with enough daring (or carefree & clueless) to jump right in to meeting new people in person? _________________ The suspense is killing me. I hope it will last. |
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