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[Zombie]

So how's everyone been doing? Hope everyone including Alley had a great time during the holidays. I'm trying to get to chats but already in bed 85% of the time. The other 15% I come when it's already over because I was in the other room watching tv or something and forgot I've been thinking and about to start putting it on my phone in the calendar or in Outlook to remind me so if I am awake I won't forget and get my ass in the chats lol.

I still come check out the forums though here and there, mostly when I'm at work like during breaks and lunches from my phone.

Other then that I've been good, except this last week I've been really sick and missed work since Tuesday but plan to go back come Monday. Also really worried that I might be getting Diabeties or something. I've been getting really fatigue or feel really really tired like or have no motivation to do anything, the reason I say/think diabeties is because it runs pretty bad in my family. Both my Uncles had it (they both have passed away. One of em that I was kind of close to just this last year in 2007, and the other one like about 4-5 yrs ago I believe.) Also my Aunt has it as well. Not sure if my other aunt does or not but I don't think she does.

But on top of it like running in the family I crave sweets/candies like ALL the time. I mainly am "addicted" to Sour Patch Kids lol, I have like one of those big bags they sell at Walgreens (mainly only place I've seen that paticular size) its like a 14oz bag and usually when I run out I get another one, also have been getting them at home as well. If I run out of those then I'll go for chocolate, pastries, suckers, pretty much anything sweet. I also drink like a red bull almost every day or every other day. Sometimes 2-3 a day. Which I'm sure is bad enough bu I used to buy those 4 packs once a day a couple of years ago so I would ahve like 4 or more sometimes through out the day.

Last time I had my blood drawn/tested the Dr mentioned something that I was close to Type 2 Diabeties or something like that. Can't remember exactly what as it was like beginning of last year I believe.

I havent gained weight, if anything I'm losing weight. Plus I don't know if my other pain meds might be hurting my insides as well. As most of you probably know and I believe I've told everyone that I was back on them but this time keeping it legit and not abusing them like I was in the past when I finally was able to get off of them, which alot of you guys and Alley helped support me. Incase you didn't know, I was clean for awhile but the pain was just to bad and I think I just recently fell off the roof in which they were able to see I had 2 diminishing disc's as well as one bulging disc in my back. So me and the Dr talked about things, I shared my feelings and was honest with her this time and we worked out something to where I wouldnt abuse them and signed a "drug" contract basically stating that I cannot get any narcotic prescriptions from any other Dr, also can only go to like 1 pharmacy, random drug tests as well as random pill counts. Pill counts is where if she wants she'll call me up at a random time and I have to bring in all my prescriptions within like an hour or two no matter what and she counts them to make sure I have the amount that I'm supposed to have at that point in the month. That just shows that I'm not taking more then I'm supposed to and or selling them, stuff like that.

All that has been working out and I haven't even thought about abusing them. There have been times I might have taken like an extra one because of the pain being so bad, but there are times I won't have to take any. Any of the "smaller" instant release ones for breakthrough pain. My regular one was/is "Oxycodone" 80mg that I take 1 every 8hrs. It was 1 every 12hrs but that kind of stopped working. Plus I don't care what Dr's say, those extended release tablets don't last 12 hrs. Usually 10hrs at the most. EVen when I first started them they only lasted about 9-10hrs. The reason I say "was/is" is because just this week I found out that I've been taking "Oxycontin" Which kind of freaks me out a little bit. First because when I kind of asked my Dr about it because I've read about it and people have told me about how good it was cause it last's longer and such but she said she DOES NOT prescribe Oxycontin to people and that would have to come from like a pain management program and such. I was doing that but we didn't discuss meds but it was to much time having to miss from work so don't do that anymore and I've been able to get a "Tens Unit" for my home so I can just put the patches on my back and do the electrical therapy at home now.

The way I found out is now this year I can use Walgreens again since they're covered now under my insurance and when I went to take it in I asked which brand/name they used since I've been used to the ones from Wal-Mart and there was a couple of times they had to use a different one made by "Teva" which wasn't really that good, like didn't work that well as well as upsetted my stomach. The ones that I was mostly getting were from "Dava". So when they checked they told me they used Teva and I explained how I've had those kind before and did not like it and if they had a different one. Then she said the only other ones they carried were the "Brand Named" ones by "Purdue". So I asked on the price diffrence and was told it would be $50 for the brand name for 90 pills, or $10 for the generic/teva ones for 90 pills, which also struck me as odd because when I was going to Walmart they said the Dava were the only ones they had and I could get and they were charging me $50 as well for each script each month. So since I've already been used and was planning on paying $50 anyways I told them to give me the brand name and I would try that, so when I got them the bottle this time said "Oxycontin" and the pills were small round greenish pills with OC on one side and 80 on the other. Then I knew those were the real Oxy's so that kind of freaked me out and going to talk to my Dr about it. More on if she knew she was giving me that but didnt want me to think thats what I was getting or if she just didnt know so incase she prescribes it to other people unknowing thinking it's just Oxycodone ER tablets and different from the Oxycontin. ALso as well if she can start writing it for Oxycontin and to put not to substitute because these are honestly working ALOT better then both of the generics I've had. Right now I'm only taking 2 a day when I'm supposed to be taking 3 a day. So for whatever reason these are alot better (and NO I will NOT sell the extras of give them away so dont email/PM me about that lol)..

So that's that. I'm still managing my pain and prescriptions very carefully. I do understand there are like two different kind of "addictions". One is the "drug addict/junkie" who abuses their prescriptions, will take more then what they're supposed to, buy off the st's, "lose" them to get an early refill, Dr shopping, stealing pills from family/friends, etc.. Then there's the "Phsically Dependant" people who are taking their medications the way they're supposed to but their body has becomes used to them and does need them to function right, however when it's time to stop taking or get off of em, it's alot easier todo so. There will still be the withdraws but you work with your Dr to taper off of them and eventually just stop without having to go through the withdraws and or the mental part of "wanting" them. Also those people aren't taking them to get high or anything. That's where I probably fall under since it's been almost a year that I've been put back on em. Well not a whole year but like a few months it will be I think. But I am doing good on that part and just being careful.

I'm jsut afraid of the diabeties thing and probably going to mention it or ask for test's when I go in next month.

But that's about it. Still around and alive, enjoying life with my kids and working. Matter of fact one of my daughters just turned 8 last Sat and this last Monday my son turned 5 (they're two days apart )
I'm starting to look into maybe "dating" again. I was about to ask this girl out this weekend that I've been talking to but because I was sick all week I put it behind for now cause didn't want to promise to take out like say tonight but ending up still being to sick to go anywhere. Now though cause of the Fatigue and sugar thing I might wait to see what's going on with that if there is even anything going on with that. I'd hate to meet/date someone new but not be in the best of health and them seeing me like that or thinking I'm lazy or something lol.

Sorry for the novel of a post, just wanted to update people also see if anyone knows about diabeties and if my symptoms are sounding like it could be or anything like that? If you need any other info about how else I feel or going on just ask I'll reaspond. It's still like 3 weeks before i can go to my Dr's again so thats why I'd thought I could ask here for maybe some advise and stuff before I go in to see my Dr again.

Thanks in advance and hope everyone is doing well and Alley as always hope everything is going wonderful for you and thank you for running such an awesome site. Can't wait to see what other new things rolls out for us this new year.

Jake
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[j3a]

hey zombie
good to hear from you again, and glad to see that you are doing well (besides the whole pain and possible diabetes thing )

i'm happy to see that you are keeping the pain meds under control and that your doctor has gone to measures to insure that things stay that way - it's great that you were honest with here about the problems you had with the meds in the past, and that she acted accordingly.

as for the diabetes issue - i don't know much about that unfortunately, but i do work with several people who have different stages / types of diabetes. all i can say is maybe do some research on your own before you go back to the doctor. check web m.d., or even google diabetes. i myself have been thinking about getting checked for that becuase of the whole lack of energy thing... but i haven't been to a doctor in about 2 years - i should probably go...

but anyways, like i said - it's good to hear from you again, take care of yourself, good luck with that girl you were thinking about asking out, and hope to see you soon in the chats!!

-j3a